moving madness

Hello!

I’m moving in THREE days and my apartment isn’t nearly packed up yet.
I still have so much to throw out, pack, give away and clean clean clean.

I have a funny feeling I won’t be sleeping much in the next few days.

I was thinking tonight about…well…everything, and I’ve realized that I’m beginning to finally realize the direction I want this blog to go in.

When I very first started this blog, I loudly proclaimed that I wanted to lose weight in a natural, stress-free way. I was certain that it would happen with small, undramatic lifestyle changes.
When the weight still wasn’t coming off, I then decided to loudly proclaim that I was going to FOLLOW A PLAN! I would calorie count, or something. I would have a game-plan, involving numbers and calendars and progress charts. Well, I didn’t do that either, did I?

It’s funny, I thought having this blog would be incredibly helpful for my weightloss. Turns out, it …wasn’t. I guess I felt as though it increased my stress towards weightloss, a little. I felt anxious and upset when I had nothing good to report. I felt like a lame blogger.

Recently, I’ve been coming out of a pretty dark place. I struggled with anxiety and mild depression throughout most of the winter, and I am finally coming out of it and smiling, laughing and appreciating small things again ( I think some of it might have to do with Seasonal affective disorder, I’ve been researching it). Anyway, I’ve been exploring what makes me happy and puts a little colour into my life.

Photography is one of those things, and I’ve started a 2nd blog about it. Not to accompany this one, but a blog all on its own, where I’ve been blogging on a more personal, creative level (focusing on my photography). I’d love if you would check it out!
http://lookingforamanda.wordpress.com

Something else that brings joy and happiness into my everyday routine is cooking beautiful, (sometimes) healthy food.

Which, coincidentally, brings me to the point of this blog post….

I am going to keep thehappyhealthygirl.com around to focus on my cooking and baking adventures (expect lots of photographs!). A place where I can share my explorations with new recipes, restaurants and nutrition, and trying to eat fresh and healthy.

That’s not to say I won’t share anything about my weight or exercise progress at all (I’m sure I will), but I just can’t focus on it. It’s not a focus in my life right now, actually. That sounds bad, yeah..I know. But it’s just not, and for right now, I’m okay with that.
I’m gearing up for a fantastic summer filled with lovely days in parks, exploring London, quiet countryside pubs, flowers, gardens and beautiful, lovely people.

I’m very much hoping that I will lose some pounds as I focus on fresh food and walking as much as possible this summer. England is a very pedestrian & public-transport friendly place, so I will be out and about all the time. Not to mention, Oxford, where I’ll be living, has the most gorgeous, fantastic (and walkable!) city centre.

Thank you all so much for sticking around and reading my blog.

Talk to you all soon!

Love,
Amanda