liberation/ cheap food is disgusting.

Hello!
This is a 3 part post…because I am rambly as hell and had alot to say.

PART ONE- Liberation

So, as you probably (definetely) know already, I’m moving out of my apartment in 5 days! (Going home for 2 weeks, then to England for a few months. We’ll end up back in Canada sometime this fall, but to Vancouver!).

So, suffice to say I’m going to be quite a nomadic lady in the coming months. I’ve been packing and throwing junk out. It’s kind of liberating! It’s giving me a feeling of new beginnings, travel and adventure.

Summer is finally right around the corner and I feel like I am slowly coming back to life. Like I’m waking up from a winter of depression, hibernation, a lack of creativity and senseless eating.

I am feeling so much better.

PART TWO- Being Broke & Photography

I am poor right now. Dirt poor. I am now officially unemployed and will be jobless until Nick and I are in England in a few weeks and I find a job. I have just enough money for surviving until then.

So what do I decide to do with my tiny, tiny budget?

Shop until I drop and go on an ebay spending spree.

Yup. I’m an idiot!

I took an oath a few weeks ago that I would start doing things which made me feel good. Turns out, material things make me feel good. Also, it turns out I have no self control and no sense of a budget. At the absolute worst time.

D’oh!…Luckily, I still have enough (kinda) to make it stretch out for the coming month of unemployment. I hope.

The “good” news is I bought some lovely spring/summery clothing which actually fits me and makes me feel confident when I wear it. Which is an amazing thing! For months I’ve been in a fashion funk, only wearing disgusting, baggy clothes that gave me no confidence or shape.

Moreover, my little ebay spree has landed me with 5 (yes, 5…) new cameras. (I realize how extreme I am and how unessecary it was to buy FIVE cameras!). I got 3 polaroid camera’s, some pola film, and 2 vintage 35mm film cameras. Photography is a passion of mine. I haven’t really put my “arty” stuff online (on my flickr), but I plan to in the coming months.

I plan on summer 2010 as being a time of creative exploration and learning how to properly shoot film, and even develop it, as well as developing my talents for digital photography as well. My boyfriend’s mum is a professional photographer and I can’t wait to spend the entire summer picking her brain about everything photography related, and *hopefully* getting to play with some of the cameras she has an extensive and extremely impressive collection.

I have decided to start a personal photography-focused blog. I’m very excited about this, and I want to challenge myself to finally take on creative projects and share them. I know I can surprise myself if I try. I will share the link with you in the coming days (once I have the blog all pretty and ready to go). I’m going to keep this blog around though, and see where it goes. I still want to blog about the healthy direction I’m trying to take. I will absolutely keep posting on here, I’ve just realized that it’s definetely not going to be a daily thing. Probably more of a few-times-a-month thing. And that’s okay.

PART 3- CHEAP FOOD IS DISGUSTING!

Okay, so my boyfriend and I like nice food. We love going out to restaurants, we love grocery shopping and we love cooking! I can tell you with certainty that I’m not overweight because I eat too much processed food. Quite the contrary! Its more likely because I consume epic amounts of lovingly prepared fresh, homemade foods, without regard to portion size.

As we all know though, fresh, delicious food can be expensive! And as you also know, I am broke with a capital b right now.

So what did I do?

Went out and bought ridiculously cheap food for my last week in Montreal. I guess it was my way of punishing myself for shopping on ebay when I couldn’t afford it.

So my cupboard is filled with instant ramen noodles, kraft dinner and canned soup. It’s all I’ve been eating and I feel disgusting.

Not eating healthy really is a punishment for your body.

So I made the wealthier boyfriend go out and buy veggies and fruit, and I am feeling much better.

I guess this last part of the post was just to tell you about my extreme lack of intelligence in pretending that I could survive off of “cheap food” (or known to some as absolute disgusting processed crap that shouldn’t ever be consumed as an actual meal).

That’s the last time I make myself so broke that I eat Mr.Noodles as a meal.

I realize how hilarious this all must sound but I really am that much of a bird-brained person sometimes.

Live and learn.

Hope you’re all well!
Love,
Amanda